this-night-is-the-winter-solstice-the-full-moon-and-a-lunar-eclipse-today-is-important-to-make-a-big-wish-that-you-swallow-whole-to-not-just-wish-it-but-breathe-it-and-visualize-it-feel-the-wish-materialize-in-your-blood-in-your-self

i shout LOUDLY

to the little faces moving steady on

the train not stopping even

though all the passengers

look like ghosts ghosts ghosts.

you're just a little wretched dirty thing

eaten up

by that old goat

blossoming evil

in his belly.

PLAY THE MOOD FOR A LONG TIME

Happy birthday!

we can't get enough

play kick the can

stick ball

beat down the tiny paper horse strung from that old cherry tree.

Remember when we sat in those swings?

when you said you loved me?

I wouldn't do it either.

I wouldn't leave this old thick life

shredded with a tin grater

for an abandoned house.

hey, no hard feelings.

and...Happy Birthday. Seriously.

I LOOK TO THE EAST

raining soaking wet

the soles of my shoes

feet

inner being.

are wet.

i want to jerk off

and cry

and punch

you.

which means me.

all those starched pieces of paper, little fortunes put in cookies- you will be successful.

you are in ruins.

which means me.

step outside where the flatulent air puffs right back on your face.

you're awake, get over it.